And the worst part is.

Ugh. I hate it when I'm not allowed to do what I want. It's not that I'm being a stupid brat or anything, but come on! A little privilege isn't so baaaaaad. Just let me do my thang here. Bring Livejournal back, you fools.

Erm yes. Livejournal. The reason why I'm posting this stupid rant is because I AM NOT ALLOWED TO OPEN MY LIVEJOURNAL.

Sorry, I'm just upset.

Not a very good welcome, dear June.

Just this morning, I received the news about Kim Kyu Jong enlisting in the army. At first, I was like, "Yeah oh cool. He's enlisting." The hype about idols enlisting doesn't really bother me. After all, just like any other Korean males reaching the 20's, it's mandatory that they enlist.

But it dawned upon me. Hey, it's Kyu Jong. IT'S KIM KYU JONG. He's the main reason why I adore Kpop nowadays! He was the first ever Kpop idol that I closely followed, despite numerous attempts of ignoring my fangirl feels, despite the judgment of everyone because yeah, Kpop was becoming mainstream. If it wasn't for this guy, I wouldn't be this appreciative of Korean culture.

So it continued to dawn upon me. He's the first SS501 member to enlist in the army, and it was his sole decision! As realization hit me, that, yes, Kyu will be away from the spotlight for two freaking years, I sarted tearing up. I'm not a very emotional person and I could care less about other idols enlisting but Kyu is a different case. He was known for being the most childish and sensitive among his group. Just thinking about this, I was like, "Will he be able to make it on his first few months in the army?" "Would he be alright in there, knowing how much of a crybaby he is?" "What would happen after 2 years of being absent in the industry?" Would he regain his career after his enlistment?" Things like that encircled my thoughts as I kept crying.

But then again, I thought, it was a natural thing tho do. He's not getting any younger now, and it's actually an advantage for him since he's starting young. By the time he goes out in 2014, he will be 27 (International age), that's 29 in Korean age. Not bad. Some idols like Shinhwa enlisted late so it was very hard to regain their careers after. One wonderful thing is that Kyu looks younger than his age. It's almost like he never ages, and his cheeks are still ful *insert some other cute things about Kyu lol* By the time he comes out, he'll look just like his age. Manlier version of Kyu, need I say more? ♥

Despite the advantages, I can't help being really sad about it. Damn. Why should there be these kind of stuffs in the Korean law? But of course, who am I to screw the system. They were just doing what they think is right, but then... Argh. Just thinking about not reading Kyu's tweets just kills me. I know, I know, I sound just like another obsessed fangirl, but who the hell cares? I love Kyu Jong.

HOOORAAAAAH.

So now I can open up to the world again. No more bitter feelings and angsty posts! (All rants shall be posted in my LJ and Tumblr lol) It's time to revamp this place!

I've been suffering from a post-heartbreak that's why I haven't been posting anything new up here. As much as I wanted to post everything that's been happening to me, I chose to lock those bitter memories and throw them away, never to be remembered again. 

First up, I got the chance to listen to DZUP 1602's live streaming because my friend Ju'an will host a segment with my other Piccola Italia orgmates. It was so fun to listen to their voices on air. My friend Hans was even there to serve as a guest, and they mentioned my name not just once, not just twice, but thrice! Awww how I miss these people. This Saturday I'm going to meet up with them to celebrate our other friend, Ruth's return to the Philippines from a study grant in Italy. Masaya 'to!

More things to come on the second half of this year. I hope everything will turn out right and things will fall into the right places. La vita e' veramente bella! 

***JOICEE ♥

Neglected.

And SO!

 I'm moving towards a new homebase. The happenings in my life aren't that interesting so if ever I have something good to tell or anything worth talking about, I'll post it here. But right now I got to separate the public and the private one. I guess I'm back to my first love, LJ. Even if he's being a biatch sometimes (Geez, he's too slow. And yes, I prefer LJ to be a guy ayt?) I still love it. Well, not that I dont love Blogger... I still do... but then, as I am going through a huge make-over in my life (OMG, where did this stupid dramatic mood come from?) I guess it's time to move on.

SO far, Blogger will be my public blog and the LJ the private. I will open my dear LJ when the right time comes :)


XXX
Joicee

This sums it all.

I wonder if I will ever have the courage to convey what this song is all about.

Unconditional.

It is when you give something without expecting anything in return.

It just happened.

I just know.

Welcome, imbalance.


CheersXXX
Joice

*Cricket Cricket*

Someone's making me happy. Someone's making me confused.

Someone's being the someone that I miss. Someone's being the someone I see the most.

Someone's being the clear one. Someone's being the blurry one.

Someone's going to be the ultimate. Someone's fighting his way to that top spot.

Someone's making that equilibrium imbalance.

Voila.

On with it.




XXXJoicee